Gosh your story hits home ((hugs)). I feel so out of control with my emotions. I was a teacher for eight years and last year I lost my teaching job and I believe a lot of it had to do with my bipolar. I'm so scared now of getting any job at all and I definitely don't want to teach ever again. I admire you for still doing all you do and I really hope that somehow your reaction today won't seem as bad when you return to school. Perhaps people will actually decide they don't really blame you for your reaction, as it was a rotten thing for the school to do.