[quote=sugahorse;1365723]I don't currently have a T. I was given a number from my pdoc for someone she knows and suggested, but effectively left it up to me to make the final call. That was nearly 2 weeks ago. I'm not sure if this psychologist is trained especially for BP or what her area of expertise it.
that is good, since it's your choice to do so or not. But if your pdoc knows the T, that might be a good thing. They can work together as a team to help you.

Right now I feel I'm in a neutral state, and like this I find it hard to motivate myself to call a doctor - I effectively feel I'm coping and right now don't have the need to ask for help. Yet when I come crashing down I clutch at straws for help. Guess I am my own worst enemy.
Aren't we all? At least, I do recognize that! On the other hand, nowyou are neutral, it might be the best time to get to know your T and build a trust relationship, which will help you in the difficult times...

I would really just like to have a certain routine, maybe a mantra I can read, certain music to listen to, other types of exercise.... anything to help me cope when I'm down and feel like ODing and getting into bed, or when I'm entering a hypmanic phase and getting ridiculously snappy.
I find it hard to keep a routine in the best of times, but they totally fly out of the window when one of my episodes start. In actual fact, that is the first sign that an episode is coming on. Again, though, it is something you can work on with a T. Maybe it's worth it to make an appointment?

All the best! I am interested to hear how you are doing, so keep posting!!