Welcome, just thekidsmom. I am glad you are here. You will find psychcentral to be a really caring and warm place.

I do think there is help for you. And you are most definitely not being silly. I understand the continuous feeling of being down. You are certainly not alone. Spend some time reading the threads here and please post anything you'd like. I think you will find a lot of compassion and a lot of helpful advice.

Have you ever talked to your doctor about how you are feeling? Would you consider going to visit a psychiatrist if for nothing other than to have an evaluation (basically they just ask a lot of questions to determine if you do have something "wrong"). Visiting a doctor would be a good first step in the right direction. If you aren't ready for that yet, still talk to us, we are all here to listen and help, if we can.