Like your sig there, oofti.

Myzen, I forget if you're on meds -- maybe you need a tweaking. I feel the way you're describing when I'm in the abyss, but a goodly portion of the time -- 85, 90 percent even -- I'm able to get through the day without having to "go through the motions." It took me years to find the med cocktail that would allow me to do this, though! (Sorry -- I know that isn't very cheering.)

Too, I either create or get fired, so I pretty much have to do it whether or I want to or not -- but I can tell when I'm "off."

Just do what you can when you can and don't be so hard on yourself.

Candy