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Yoshi · May 10, 2010, 10:08 AM

So yesterday, my mom ran into the bathroom while I was taking a shower and told me that my dad was sick.
I hurryed out of the bathroom to see what was wrong-allthough my dad DOES have some health problems, so I didnt really think much of it.
Well when I got to my dads room, he was laying on the floor, trying to talk, shaking HORRIBLLY, and saying that his neck was hurting and he was holding his chest.
We put him on the bed, and told him not to move AT ALL.
Well, My dad has had drug problems in the past, but he got off of them for about atleast 5 years.
He does do some pills, but nothing EXTREAME, until yesterday....
My dad started hugging me and my brothers, thinking he was going to die.
Me and my mom went threw his backpack, and found a needle, with herowin.....
He took a whole needle, and shot it in his neck-though it seems weird since I NEVER heard of people shooting up in there neck.
Well back to the subject, I was SO SCARED, All I could do was cry and yell at him and tell him how much I hate him for this, and how much he's screwing up his family.
I told him I NEVER want to see him again. I could'nt control myself- though I did'nt really mean to flip out.
I love my dad dearlly, and this hurts so much just seeing him like this, he even started crying.
Then after a few minutes...he fell to the floor, making a choking sound, and gasping for air.
I called the ambulance and they took him overnight.
When he got home this morning, he fliped out on me and my mom,and brothers for calling the ambulance.
What could I have done!?!? I thought he was having eather a cesure or a heart attack, maybe even a stroke!
I feel so bad for getting him introble with the cops.
But he needed it!
So now my mom wants to get a divorce from my dad, but scared he will hurt her.
My dad has MANY mood changes,more than normal, and wont get help.
When he flips out, its bad, he brakes stuff, and even hits us.
But he does NOT mean it. he really needs help....
I feel so bad for yelling at my dad.

Was I wrong for doing this?
Calling the Ambulance getting him introble with the cops?
Was I wrong for yelling at him the way I did,even though I didint mean it.

I would appreciate your guys advise, I am so upset its unreal- I cant stop crying

Even though these drugs are hurting and killing him...
There also killing and hurting his family.

All I can think about is questions to ask my dad-

Dad why are you doing this?
Why do you pick drugs over your family?
DONT YOU CARE ABOUT US, WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.
Why are you killing yourself, and your family?

All I want to say to him-

I hate you
I never want to see you again
Your the WORST dad in the world
You dont give 2 shits about your FAMILY.
Your drugs are more IMPORTANT to you then YOUR LIFE!

--I'm sorry this post was so long--