I'm not a student right now, but I'm working for a university hoping to get in as a grad student. I almost got into grad school, but at the last minute there was a technicality, it was the professor's fault, not mine. This is my fourth summer of research... it's sad I have to do this much research without being a student. I guess if I did get in, I could probably get lots of support from the university from disability services or something.

I have medication to last this job, but I'm hundreds of miles away from pdoc right now. Plus I am afraid to adjust meds when I am working and I don't have that many symptoms except the breakthrough depression and in general acting stupid, I have lots more symptoms off meds.

Looking at that link you just provided, I would have little chance. In fact, on meds, my functioning level number is higher than most people I have been told. Off meds however, I am severely incapacitated.

I just feel like though I wouldn't function well in higher academic pursuits now on meds. I could work at a normal job, but I have little chance at getting a job at a department store or something because they would think I would leave to do some random research eventually.