Maybe I'm tired, I have just finished a 26 hour shift at work and the first thing I do when I get home is come here to PC. PC is my home page. I have been here many years now and I have the most posts out of all members. Doesn't mean that I have said anything interesting during my time here, just posted to most anything and everything.

I guess when I first came here PC was the greatest support that I needed at the time and then gradually over time I didn't really need a lot of support and went mad in supporting other people.

But what now? Yes I still log on and PC will be on my laptop screen all day long on my day off from work but I'm not getting (or needing) the support. I don't feel I really need support now. Not sure anyone wants to listen to my advice anymore. God, it's that flippin' horse talking again.

I'm rambling I know, just, I guess I don't get that buzz I used to get when I used to spend my whole life here at PC. I hope I don't sound ungrateful, I am truly grateful, I'm just not sure why I come here anymore and yet it would break my heart if I didn't.

Disillusioned with life.