Is being angry at society as a whole the same as being angry at the system? I don't think so, but maybe I'm wrong. I used the part about mental health professionals only because they seem to me to think themselves so enlightened, and I'm thinking not so much.

I'm angry that you are considered somehow defective if you don't fit into those societal norms. Who the heck is to say what's normal? I am angry that these values are imposed on me in such a way that I can't even TALK about how I feel without risking my personal freedom. What is so darn great about life anyway? I mean we're all going to die anyway, so what difference does it make whether we choose when or leave it up to fate? I think people are just afraid of it (dying) so they get all wrapped up in how "precious" life is. Well, it may be precious for you, but it isn't so precious to me.

I'd just like to have a place to talk about it. I NEED a place to talk about it. And I'm not saying that this should be that place. I think the rules here make sense and I understand why they are in place. But surely somewhere........ My T (former) couldn't/wouldn't be that place either.