this has been a hard couple of weeks for me and i feel like all my trauma is coming back on me when i was 6 my brother came in my room and had sex with me but after that i feel like it was my fault i blame myself cus i never said no and i feel like this is the reason why i started cutting myself and throwing up and tried killing myself but recently i feel like all my emotions are piling back on and over taking me i am in therapy but i feel like i am not succeeding even though i just strated i feel like a failure i feel like everything that i have done in my life has been a huge fail even at home i feel like everything that i do just fails i fail and i know that i am not even worth the time or effort thats why i dont know if i should even be in therapy cus if i am a pointless person why should my T have to deal with me i dont know all my emotions are just taking over now i would rather feel numb than to feel anything i was numb these past few months but now i feel it and i want them to go away again i want them to leave