I understand your anger, I had one t after the first I mentioned, I saw him, but man, he could trigger me sometimes, but we would iron it out. I always kept in my mind that not the "whole" idea of therapy and therapists are bad. You are right, you are angry, why? I have no idea, would it help you to talk a little about what it was that your T did or did not do that has turned you against everything and everybody ? I read your words, your anger, your attitude towards life and maybe non life, and it brings me back to where I was at 5yrs ago and even the years leading up to that. Depression, is the culprit that does this, and the longer it is not addressed the worse it gets. Denial of help, makes it worse, delays treatment, I hated that period I had to accept, I had a problem, then the next move was doing something about it. With some encouragement, I made the first step. I can go on about this topic, and there will be so many different reactions, by so many, so I best stop here. I do not know much about you, your age, or your problems, but just want to encourage you to get help, and it can work. Life is too short, and after at the point of choosing to continue it or not, I am glad today, that I chose to fight the demon, I feel 95% sure I beat it too. Also, if a person is dealing with substance abuse too, that helps feed the demon big time, making it split into 2 demons to fight and hope to conquer. I did not say that directly at you, for I do not know you, I say that in a general sense.
Lots of luck with what you choose, I hope you seek help, and things progress for you.

DE