<font color=blue>I tried to post an update yesterday, but my internet connection was so bad it kept timing out or something. I kept trying for 5 hours and no luck. I think it's better today. I hope. Maybe my mood is a little bit better too - I don't know yet.</font color=blue>

Ozzie - thanks for chatting with me last night.

Carrie - thanks for the hugs - being mad at the kids is the worst, isn't it?

Heather - thanks for caring about me and saying nice things about me.

Mary Alice - thanks for worrying about me.

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There really isn't any particularly bad damage - no doctor needed (I don't go to doctors anyway - I don't like them). It scared me that I kept doing it for so long, and that I was getting more inventive about it. I kept wanting to cut my neck. I'm still in a bad mood today. Hubby has the day off (Veteran's Day) so he wanted to go do things (he has a friend who wants to give us a male llama and I was feeling pressured into taking it but I'm trying to cut down on animals not get more, and it's not even the type or quality of llama that I would want, and this guy has such a nice house and barn and property it made me feel so rotten about my house and all that I'll never have, and when we were sitting around talking there were things I wanted to say but couldn't get a word in), and hubby has been on the computer and I wanted to check my messages and this board, and needed the computer to do my homework. I'm still not doing too well, but have'nt hurt myself today. I would have had therapy today but it will be Thursday because of the holiday. There is so much I need to get done this week.

I haven't used my light box or taken SJW since Friday. I wonder why I'm sabotaging myself.

I hope that all of you are doing okay. All this hiding in dark corners isn't really any fun.

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Wendy

<font color=green>"Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible." -Jane Rubietta</font color=green>