I'm having a really bad night.

I was really hoping to get some emails out this evening so there would be at lleast some hope of some options this week... but I haven't been able to do anything or contact anyone.

I feel like I am deciding on my future by not doing anything and letting the worst happen on its own.

For now I am hoping to just go to bed early and get some rest... although that was my plan yesterday, and all I did was stay in bed today.

If my phone is back on tomorrow maybe I will be able to make some contact. Right now I just want to watch TV and sleep.