Starlite, I am so sorry you are in pain. Do you have back up plan? Do you know what has triggered this? Have you been complaint with your meds? What has destablised you? I know that you havent been around as much, but you do pop in. Maybe now would be a good time to come back to PC and get involved the way you used to, you are a such a bright light here and are have been great in supporting others, now might be a time to get some of that back.

I know the challenge you are faced with and it is not easy. Do you go to NA, have you a sponsor? Is there anyone IRL you can call on to help you through this really difficult phase.

Write more to us. I am in a completely different time zone to you, my day is your night but I do check in and will listen and understand.

((((((((Starlite))))))))))

Hang in there friend.