i am so tired. i need a break. i just can't take it anymore. everyone wants to much from me. i can't deal with anyone else anymore. i'm so tired and frustrated that i want to sit in the corner and scream. just feel like know one around here helps me any. they say it's going to be ok. and then don't do anything to help me. i can't keep working full time for nothing. and then trying to deal with everything inside that's to much to deal with. been having lots of flashbacks and memories. just crazy things. fred dead said if i give him $5 he'll move into his own place. maybe if i give him $5 he'll move out from my head and into my feet or something. i can't take work, my sick brother that i love more then life it's self, my own sickness ( which is triggered by stress, been in lots of pain today) and then everything that goes around in my head. this is it i can't take anymore if one more person says anything to me i'll just freak out. if i show up for work the rest of this week it well be a miricle cause i'm just losing my mind. think i understand the concept of a nervous breakdown. cause i'm about to just snap. t.g. for xanax or i would of lost it already.
monty