I'm your age and I hate all of the last 21 years of my life

I'm really sorry you're going through all this. I think I know the feeling of never having had anything in your life. It was a mracle I was able to graduate from high school. After that I wasn't able to go to the university or to find a job. The one I have now was provided by the mental health center I had to be admitted to after I attempted suicide.
It sounds like you're having some problems with some of your family members. I know that too. As for my social life... well, I don't have one.

Do you know what's keeping you from making your goals and dreams come true? Would you be willing to consider discussing it with a professional? Just a thought. It could help. In the mean time feel free to post here any time.

Take care