hi its me.i found a connection .i so hate it here but im doing ok a lot better then i thought i would and believe me that is a relief.the mother is being herself but i am able to just dissapear into my own world and it is ok untill i do somethting stupid like forget to feed the cats and then she starts slamming things around and all tryiing to get my attention and yelling at me to feed the cats because they are driving her crazy.or not getting her breakfast opening the door fast enough.things like that but so far she dont seem to hate me too much and is for the most part tolerant of my spacyness at times.but it is only beenbeen 5 days with her well see if she dont hate me by the end of the week.im so scared she will and then things will get worse.im just trying to be as quiet as i can not say anything and just try to keep on top of everything she wants me to do.i am writing in my journal when i am able to get away for an hour in the early afternoons and that helps but i so miss everyone at home i am real homesick.i just want this all to be over with.thanks for letting me gripe again.