{{{{{{{{{{{friends}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm crying after reading this thread. I am so sorry these terrible things happened to you and that you have to re-live them in flashbacks. I had no idea they could be so vivid. I just posted my abuse (during a drug overdose) story and it just seems so mild compared to what I can only imagine some of you have gone through. My wish for you all is that you feel safe and protected from this moment on, in everything you do in life. It's all that any of us want and deserve-- to feel safe from harm.

So, please hang on through your flashbacks and harness your power to overcome. I know you can do it. I know that the human heart is stronger than it is frail. The human mind is capable of amazing things-- think of rocketships and brain surgery-- just because we lay people don't have the smarts to build a rocket or operate on a brain-- it doesn't mean we don't have unharnessed brain power. Flashbacks are not what's happening now, so I think they can be gently recognized and sent away. Maybe taking a meditation class might help some of you... or biofeedback.

I feel so... angry and distressed that so many of you are hurting like this. I'm so sorry that you experience such pain and sorrow... and I think I'm feeling a little 'survivors guilt' if you can call it that. Because I was molested or accosted or raped or something and I don't remember it because I was too busy overdosing
and being left for dead on my own front door... UGH.
I almost want to re-experience what happened to me so I can understand what I'm "supposed to be going through..." I don't know if this is coming out right. I don't feel very articulate right now.

Love and hugs to all,
Kelly