Pegs,

I know what you are going through. I have been here for over 5 years. Started off slow as I was in the middle of the trauma with my Mother & PC got me through that & then PC traveled with me through my move here to KY & through all the heart aches & thrills that I have gone through here. I thought that I would be able to take on a little more here & then when spring hit & I found that my life really didn't allow me the time for that, I found myself away from here for 2 weeks before I realized that my life was just too busy for anything but checking in once in awhile.

It's a hard feeling to realize that there is more to life than the PC we have been living at for so many years, but this is also a good thing. Just because that happens doesn't mean that we can't be here when we have the time & the mental ability to post support or even when we might need some support getting through some of the little issues that come along.

We have to understand that life is never stationary & we have to analyze our own situations & do what is best for us. I can't imagine how psychologists go day in & day out helping people & trying to say the right thing so that they don't do any harm......it's stressful & when we try to do that even here 24 hours a day, it's a stressful situation also......sometimes we come to a place where there is a void & nothing seems to come out. That seems to happen mostly when so many other things in our life are coming at us all at the same time & those people in our real life are in need of the energy that we have.

PC isn't an all or nothing site. There is nothing wrong with finding yourself gone for awhile because life is taking all your energy. Coming back when you feel you have the time & energy is better than trying to force energy to happen when you don't have it left from what life is requiring.

You are cared about here. It isn't about how many posts you have. You can come back less often & provide the support you are able to at that time & it will continue to be appreciated. It's important to be able to come & go as you need to as your life changes, everything changes & there is nothing wrong with change.....change is good. I have always found that getting stuck in a rut is much of a worse thing than change ever has been & is much less healthy.

Don't worry about when or where you are able to be here, just go with the flow & let your flying horse take you where his wings fly. Feel the freedom of flight. God will guide those wings to land where they are needed.

Take care of yourself & let go of your worries. With my years of life, I have found that God takes care of my worries no matter how I want things to turn out.....its been a long learning process but a good one.

I am only able to come here once in awhile now. A rainy day when I'm not out mowing my acres of grass, painting my house, working with the 4-H kids on the trail riding, working on my Bible study, cleaning up after my 6 dogs, & am not dealing with a brain that doesn't want to think or worry about anything, or just taking off & trail riding myself just to chill out.

I know you will find the right combination in your life that you will become comfortable with....just let life happen for awhile & feel your freedom & I am sure you will find much fulfillment.

Take care, we will always be a part of PC even when we aren't here daily or even weekly at times. Your posts will still have the valuable content when you post them no matter how often you are here.

Enjoy some time for yourself & your family & dealing with the interview process for your permanent position....you have a lot going on to keep your mind busy & that is very ok.

Take care of yourself.....we all have to learn how to do that at times & what exactly it means for us.

Eskielover (Debbie)