I have the same problem, soscared. I firmly believe (which my T disagrees with) that there are two diff. people in me - the nice, efficient organized me that goes to work, does an awesome job, aces tests, etc. Then there is #2, the real me who is such a mess that I can't be allowed to really run anything because it would be a disaster.

#1 gets all the compliments about work, and staying on top of things. #2 does SI, and is very scared. It is easy for #1 to stay in control - there is more aggression within her and she simply functions.

I had problems remembering things because of the meds that I was on, but since I have changed them, it is 100% better.

You'll be okay........my T keeps telling me that both of them are really me and that I have to bring the two people together and merge them. I don't believe that is possible.

Take care of yourself, and try not to stress out. Focus on one thing at a time, not the whole picture........it may help.

Mary Alice