Hi, Turquoisesea! Sorry for the oppressive feelings, but I'm glad your semester is over. With that, I realize you confront larger questions, and depression won't leave you alone as you try to wrap your mind around those questions.
Please keep posting and writing. Hopefully, interacting with yourself, with us and with your therapist will produce something of value.
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.