(((((((((((((((Stove)))))))))))))))))
I am glad you feel PC is such a safe place to share, it was such a relief to me too when I first came here two years ago and read the posts I found myself going "Thank you, thank you I"m not alone, I"m not alone, someone understands!"
Please don't feel embarassed, I enjoyed reading this post, it reminded me by posting and sharing my journey I'm helping others, keep posting Stove and welcome to PC

Best Wishes, Peace, and Serenity
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