So i had my sleep study last night. It was a very rough night. Found out I do have sleep apnea. I have to be fitted for the C PAP machine, just a lot of problems going to surround getting to the place that I need to go and stuff like that. I came home and I live with my dad and step-mom, they didn't even care that I found out that I need to go get this done. I don't have a vehicle so i use my dad's vehicle and he told me that i can't use it to go to my appointments that I need to do all this stuff today. I have to go into the next state which is about 30 min or so, but he did bring me to my appointment last night because my step-mom's sister and brother-in-law where here and he really can't stand them....so it's like I can do stuff or he can do stuff for me when it is most convenient for him. So i can use my mom's vehicle, it's just that when my dad told me this stuff it's like he could care less about me or finding out that something really is going on at night. They totally didn't believe that I wasn't sleeping at night and that I sleep all the time. I feel so undeserving of things right now. I could care less about myself as I feel so does my dad and step-mom.
My step-mom sufferes from RA and right now i guess that's so much more important than anything i am going through...which i understand that she is in pain and stuff, but for the last month she has been doing so good until today she came home from her appointment and went to bed and has been there for the last 8 hours. How the **** does she think that I sleep all the time.
I am just really fed up with things right now. I have been trying to get my own place and am just waiting for some people to start moving out of the low-income apartments and i will get a place, it probably will be a year though, and to tell you the truth, i can't take it here another year. I am unable to work right now because of my back, plus with no vehicle it's hard to get to work...but am sure that could be worked out because that would involve money with my dad. It's not like I don't pay for the gas I use and I pay insurance on the car. I guess am just feeling sorry for myself again, and feeling very undeserving of what i need to be able to maybe get a good night's sleep again.
Anyways, enough is enough
Jen