hey, just coming down,in,back...out of a swirly moment...not the same as a flashback but i dont know the right words to express it......sad, hard cry,confused,now SO tired like I been doing hard physical labor, like just breathing is work, an effort not an automatic function. I have about 14 & 1/2 hrs till I see T.so just stay distracted till i can go to sleep and then go see her. if i could just go to sleep then i know i would be better when i wake(if no flashes) then i "re-set"... does that make sense to any one? i'm not sure how to discribe it - the little men in my head shovel all the crap in a box and shove it into that room behind the big scary door...but i have to be asleep before they will come out...