{{{{{{Esther}}}}}}}}}}} I'm sorry you feel shame over things you did as a child. Could it be that you are putting adult expectations on your child self? Children are innocent creatures. We learn things from adults. Not to blame your mother (I don't know your circumstances), but please be gentle on yourself and very importantly, try to forgive your child self for these things you are feeling guilty about. Maybe you could focus on the good side of your child self and bring that into the light.

I hope your t helps you work thru this. Good luck,

Kelly