Maybe it's you releasing all the evil things and toxins and you are healing. You will see, hear and all that good stuff that is still you. I think you are thinking of the worst. You can turn this dream and interpretation. I too feared the worst and what I found was a little mini-me...ready for me to nurture and love. So far have worked on reparenting stuff. That was hard because I had to raise myself in the areas they were not good at. Changing the verbal abuse around to positive affirmations. Nn, it's not easy. These things are new. They take work and time to heal. You will feel awkward, silly , scared but you grow into it. Life is better like this.