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(((((Black lordheaven)))))--I was without both parents as a child--My mom divorced my father when I was 2, and my mother was diagnosed as a Paranoid Schizophrenic....in and out of institutions all of my early years.
I learned early on to balance a checkbook, iron my big brothers shirts, put dinner on the table, go to the laundromat, etc--was doing these rather well at age of 7!!
I was told I was "a pest", "a nuisance", I should never have been born, etc- by my older brothers--------and i was totally neglected and abused as a wee one, in puberty, on into adulthood.
I accepted it all with no feeling it was "normal"--However, just as there is sunlight, there is rain; when my mother was present; she told me always that I was "loved no matter what" The "crazy lady" saved my life, she also had some input with positive parenting of my grown children. I love them unconditionally.
Neglect, as a form of abuse is exceptionally difficult to formulate in the formative years. I learned to be "socially acceptable" through trial and error.
I am. I survived. I am, today a human with feelings (often too many--ugh!!)-----As SplitImage has already stated--through 40 years of therapy; (some of it good, some of it bad)--"connected to my feelings"--As stated by Split Image-
a good therapist is needed to accomplish this--also sharing here is a "good thing" (ugh-Matha Stewart phrase)
I give thanks to The Byzantine for the excellent sites!!!
Welcome to pc----------------theo
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