I don't think my T is giving me anything. I think it is something I need to find on my own.
I thank you for wishing me peace along this path.
I do good then one thing can bring devastation to my day and memories of the abuser, the place the smells in the air all come flooding back.
It is draining at times.
I actually will split in order to try and avoid the pain.
Thanks for the suggestion though Petunia. A stone or marble may be good and is small enough to take with me wherever I go.