Dear Blue (and Tree), I said the same things to my T. that I have an awful feeling the reason i won't hurt so much in future is not because of healing but because of scar tissue, in which there are no nerve endings. that some day I will be a jigsaw puzzle held together by scar tissue.

T assures me it's not so. She gave me a little bit of her own history one day, and in spite of it I can see the healthy "tissue" in her, not scars. She's told me a little here and there about other clients' healing too. And look at this... Blue Moon started on PC swayed by every piece of advice given her - I say this with great affection, Blue, because today you are so much stronger than that!! And Treehouse's story of healing is a joy to behold.

Blue's questions (can i really just keep layering on "I am deserving" and some day change what is so deep within)... hard questions, big questions. T says sometimes the journey is long. But Tree is right; there will come an end, a good ending.

Still it's hard to remember to counter this by remembering to tell myself this, to do this, to try not to do that, to combat this, watch out for that... I feel like John Wayne's little bunch trying to hold out against a big Indian attack, they just keep coming from every direction. ...
well.... let 'em come on then.
I'll watch your back, if you'll watch mine.