Your support means the world to me. I haven't shared what is going on with my family yet; I just don't have the heart to.

I saw my pdoc this afternoon. No changes. Just wants me to see him in a month. The last thing he always says to me is to promise I won't do anything to hurt myself. He's a good man.

My husband said he didn't mean what he said earlier. I told him that I know that. I just feel so bad for him that his thoughts are so out of control. We'll see what happens tomorrow.