This too was something she hated. My mom lacked a lot of basic parenting skills. It has leaked through the family. My grandfather, he needed love and found it with a woman at work. Good for him. My grandmother found love through her grandchildren. Basically, they told their children marry Jewish and propegate the faith. As much as my mom tried to run from the past, she unwittingly recreated what she ran from. My family would populate a small villiage. Many of my nephews and neices are quite observant when it comes to the Jewish faith. So I hear "that is too Jewish" phrase. All my brothers and sisters work hard to put love back in the family (except for my brother who justs puts money back into his. I left out the nightmares, zoned out looks, the anxiety meeting new people and the graphic part of my history. The point was how it affected me. Mom taught me not to trust (even her). Now that I am adult, she wants me to trust her (no way, she got it right the first time. She is not worthy of my trust). CONTINUED