I posted some stuff in the Depression forum, but I cant stop what I am doing to myself. I cut myself and the scars are there in the open. Every time my parents asked me what it was about-i just lie and they took it. When I dont have a razor i just give myself bruises. I have bruises all over my body. That pain is real. Its like I have be punished for never doing anything in life or when it gets too much i just want to get back at the people that hurt me. People always believe my lies.
I just dont know if it is easier for them to believe them. I feel they dont care about me too much or they are not interested. Its like they dont even love me or dont care what happens to me.