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Possible trigger? I don't know. It might be but I don't think it is.
I don't even know why I should give those voices in my head the time of day since they technically aren't even real. Most of the time I do, whether I'm nice or not really depends. Whenever I think this post in my head it makes me really cold. I hate that.
I also don't like how when I go to bed it feels like I'm sinking deeper into myself and my head feels like it's going crazy like this energy is bouncing around from my eyes and it bounces all around my head. It also aides that sinking feeling. Like, I should be seeing something, like, before whenever I'd get the feeling like I was just below water looking up and I'd try to go deeper but I would just float back up... now I just keep getting dragged under. I guess if it was actually meaningful it wouldn't be so bad but nothing ever happens. I guess I just feel like shouting if you are going to do something then do it! Don't be so coy. I'm not playing around anymore.
If you can understand this:
1. good for you (I figured my friends here at DD are the only ones that really could)
2. please respond, all responses are depreciated but I always love input of people's thoughts on the matter
okay... off to bed now, that post has just been floating in my brain for awhile.
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