I think you need to rather focus on how far you've come.
It's a sad reality most of us have to go through once being dx'd - the ones we thought were our closest friends probably aren't. At least we get an opportunity to spring-clean our lives and focus on the few people who actually count. I get very down about this exact topic - I do not talk to my parents about BP (they don't know about the dx and prob don't know what BP is). My boyfriend knows and is fairly supportive. A few of my friends know, but it's hard to keep leaning on them for support.

I am fortunate enough to have a job (And maybe I should focus on this), bt I hate it. It's 8-5, and causes me more stress than I feel it's worth. I'm on the verge or resigning, but first need to find something else.