Hey Rainbows. I get the feeling this wasn't an accident from the way he was with you all to shooting up in the neck. Almost sounds like he was afraid of the cops and was angry he lived. Think he did not want to get help or he would have checked into rehab right away when he saw how much he was hurting his family. Seems like he delt with this in the usual manner...not taking responsibility for his actions and taking his failure out on his family. So let's just focus on you right now. Let's see where you get your positive emotional support from and build on that. It is great you shared with us here. Sounds like your mom is doing the best she can with what she knows. I was wondering if you have ever heard of Nar-Anon? It is a group for people to learn how to deal whth their life better even if their loved one stops using or not. This includes teens and young adults who do not have the support they need. PM me if you want more information on this as well as domestic abuse info. Keep posting.