Wow, you guys! What a great thread! This isn't the best time for me to be trying to comment
but I couldn't resist saying
something...
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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Maybe this whole quest for something greater, a connectedness to the universe is just a big 'ol longing for mommy and daddy. And a place to call home.
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Both may very well be parts of the same thing but that doesn't mean one is "nothing but"
[you didn't say that, I did] the other. You could every bit as well say that a longing for mommy and daddy and a place to call home is one more expression of the quest for something greater, a connectedness to the universe.
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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Like she sees this dirty and disgusting part of me and she feels this way about me and just wanted me out of her office. I feel embarrassed and shame.
... its at night when everyone is asleep and Im alone with myself that I feel like shame and hated by the world. I told her I feel like I was damaged at the deepest part of me and I can never heal the damage that was done. It takes so much effort and I wont really be healed. I'll be broken pieces held together with tape and glue, I want to feel whole and comfortable in this world but I never will.
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Originally Posted by treehouse
Sometimes when I really FEEL the core of the damage and the shame and the yuckiness, it just feels so overwhelmingly big and TRUE that I get scared that healing isn't possible and in the end, T and I will just have to find a way to put a band aid on the wound to hide it and that will be that. I hate that feeling.
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In my experience, healing doesn't come from arguing with those feelings or trying to change them. You move on through them, let them come up and be there, until they lose all their significance and pretty much evaporate. Then you have space to put something better into.
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Originally Posted by treehouse
I really believe - really, really believe - that if anyone can overcome those feelings, you can.
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I agree, except that as I said, it's not about "overcoming" exactly...
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Originally Posted by treehouse
I heard someone say one "we can't heal what we don't feel" and I do think that's true. If we don't reach down and touch those hurt parts of us, if we just ignore them and wish they weren't there, things are never going to change. I think feeling and accepting what's there is part of the healing. It won't always feel this bad.
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That's pretty much what I was trying to say! Reach down, touch, experience and
accept.
G'night!