You are not pathetic...you reaching out here for support and that is beautiful
Sometimes we have to accept where we are...I have had to do this with my career...I recently dropped out my master's program, knowing, I could never be a teacher, as much as I would like to be one... I have had to accept I will probably work with kids and wait tables my whole life...
But I have great, great friends, a possible boyfriend in the last 2 weeks

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and I am truly a kind person, I know these things as well...
What do you know about yourself?