Thanks for your suggestions. I appreciate the caring. I can't ask for help but will I will take another look at the pharmacy. If there is a hardware store its not anywhere around here and I am not up for venturing too far away.

I am still not doing very well. Wasn't able to sleep at all last night and I am still loosing the fight the with the tears and defeating thinking. Stress welts and blisters have popped up all over my privates and inner thights, under my arms, behind my ears and on my neck and chest. Burning, stinging pain. Cold cloth helps a little.

Some of the group are heading out to the canyon and dame and then some shopping at outlet stores. I will pass. The distraction might be good but they are a boisterous bunch and confined in a car with them would be way too intense. I have been here before back in the early 90's on the way to New Mexico for a powwow. We spent a couple of nights here in Vegas and visited the canyon and the dame then too. In my former life I travelled quite a bit throughout the US actually including New York, LA Dallas and lots of points in between and along the way. Lots of road trips and many flights in and out for business and pleasure. Way before things got so intense with border crossings and my fears of guns became such a big deal and I became a high maintenance emotional basket case. While I have had episodes of the crazies for most of my life they were fewer and farther between then they are now. Now everything triggers me and I am constantly battling the effects.

I am so tired and think I could actually sleep right now even with the rumbling and screams from the roller coaster but I dare not go there or there will be no hope of sleep again tonight. Tomorrow can't come fast enough.

I will venture out on my own again to try to see the art show. I was going to spend some time around the pool but its pretty crowded and noisy there too so I didn't stay there long. Now the roller coaster is in full operation so the rumbling and the screams are now a constant background noise in my room. I tried to work on the retreat report but my mind can't focus enough to make it worth the effort.

This time tomorrow I will be on my way home. I just focus on that for some comfort.