hi far,

i wrote this in a post a little while back, thought of it again when i read about your "assignment." thought it might help you..

in addition to attachment issues (which i have as well!), you may have trouble with something called "object permanence." it's the concept of understanding that something still exists, even though it is out of sight. babies don't have a grasp of this, and that's why the game "peek-a-boo" works so well with them. they really think that when you're hiding behind your hands, that you are actually gone, and that's why they're so surprise to see you when you appear again.

most people develop this concept early in development, but others don't. and maybe this happened to you. it would explain why you have such an urgency to check on your therapist - to make sure they are really there. i'm the same way. it's gotten a teeny-tiny bit better as i've gone along, but it's definitely still there. i breathe a sigh of relief the minute i see my therapist each week, and not a moment sooner.

not sure if you know about this concept, but i thought it might help you if you knew about it.