I went to see the psychiatrist today. I was terrified of her, turns out she was terrified of me! I don't know why. She was just timid, nervous and didn't say much of anything until we came to the medication part. I of course stuck to just flat out lying to the woman. I just want this forced therapy over so I can find my own therapist! Someone who can actually help me. I hope. All I want is help, but it seems so far out of reach right now.