No... but I supposed it had taken some time to be put down. It takes time to get back. But you still can write, talk coherently and have friends around in a world in which you grown up. Outside is a nice world, here a lot of interesting, helpful people.
I am somehow in the same situation; other version and of course... worse (maybe because it is mine) so better not to talk anymore. You need people to tell you how is better, not how it could be worse!
You are beautiful, young and have so many stars... to read in :-)