Well, finally decided I needed to speak to pdoc as I felt my meds weren't really working. Basically my depression was just getting too much. I was too numb to cry, but couldn't work, and was very snappy and irritable. I was continuously consumed with anxiety, had no appetite and just felt bad. She went through my file and when I phoned her back, she said I was by no means an easy case. Gee - how's that supposed to make me feel? I've hardly tried a whole lot of combo's, only ever been on one type of mood stabiliser, and only tried two types of ADs properly (Citalopram and a NARI). I've had Lantanon and Rivotril, but these were only for a few days at a time. From what I've heard from people on this forum, my dosages are also still very low.
May it's just that our country is a little behind with regards to medication and their knowledge of dealing with BP?!?

I'm going to see her in 4.5 hours. She discussed the option of booking me off work for a few days (Don't know if I can do this, as I'll be my own worst enemy being bored at home) or sending me to hospital for a few days.

Now today I feel a bit better than yesterday (Which was rock bottom) and I feel like a fraud going to see her, when yesterday I complained how I bad I was and today I'm OK, coping.