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Old May 14, 2010, 01:42 AM
mormat mormat is offline
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Originally Posted by garden gal View Post
I've been feeling a little less depressed the last few days, but tonight I'm struggling again. I was just having dinner with my boyfriend, and he made a joking comment about how my childhood wasn't really that bad. (I grew up with an alcoholic single mother who had severe untreated mental health issues.It wasn't good.) First I got a little mad at his lack of understanding, and then I started feeling really flooded by difficult memories of my childhood, and started to cry in the restaurant. My boyfriend apologized, but really didn't know what to say. Now, I'm just trying to not let the way I'm feeling now override the progress I feel like I've made this week in dealing with my depression. The last couple of days I've felt more hopeful, I've made it to all my shifts at work, and I've gotten some productive things done at home. Now, I just feel like curling up in bed and hiding.
Don't let the past take up space in the present or the future. Begin your own story, without the past. I went through these emotions for a long time also in my life. When you begin to think about the bad parts of your life from the past, turn it into the good things which are happening now. Stay busy! Your boyfriend sounds like a good guy. It's hard for another to really understand what you went through, if they have not had those same experiences. Love takes up a lot of space in your heart and mine. You two love each other unconditionally. Remember, it's all about your time together now. Trust me , time goes very fast in our life's.

Best, Jerry
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