I don't know what she would have done with me then! It took 17 years of different meds to find the right combo! Lamictal (generic name Lamotrigine) is like a miracle for me...the only one that has worked for more than 5 or 6 months.
If you feel comfortable in the hospital, then it might be a good option...I've had several stays and only had 1 bad experience; most of the time it's very helpful.
I wish you the best!!
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."