I think it was more the “high” of actually being happy. When I finally felt “okay” or even “good” my views on things changed a bit to reflect that. Of course I knew I could be hurt but at that moment felt invincible.

There obviously won’t be a quick cure at all, although I do wish there was one. It would make life a lot simpler. I guess that would take away experience and the ability to learn from experience. I completely agree that healing takes time and effort. I am working on the underlying issues as best as I can. There are some I am unwilling to bring up which makes it a bit hard to deal with at times. For example I am unwilling to discuss SI in full detail, as in why I started, because it brings up the topic of my father and mother. In the past few days the topic of my parents and SA has become increasingly difficult to even think about, not to mention discuss or try to work through. I know I can’t avoid answering questions or bringing it up forever but for now I’d really rather not. Despite several setbacks I have found myself slowly making progress.