I agree with Treehouse. My feeling is that there wasn't a proper sense of closure with your T. As a final wish you could have gotten the meager acknowledgement. We all need T and we are emotionally fragile to getting negative reactions from them. I think maybe you could email her, being as open and thoughtful as you were here and tell her what you needed. I see nothing wrong in sending an email to someone that you felt connected with. Your email might give you a sense of closure.