hang in there Scorpiosis... I just went through changing Ts and it is a very difficult process. I also went through the loss of a relationship. I felt the feeling of emptiness or like there was a void especially at night so what I actually did was get a body pillow. I snuggle up with that and though it's not a perfect substitute for a person it sure is more comfortable!

As for T, I also gave mine a card when I left. I moved and she continued to do phone sessions once every few weeks to make sure I was finding a T and adjusting to being back in my hometown okay. old T never once mentioned the card and actually had said she was going to call me one final time to close things out but she never called. At first I felt kinda raw about the whole thing. I felt exposed that I gave her this card really thanking her for everything over the past 3 years and then her not saying anything about it was a let-down, but when I look at it, she obviously read it, she obviously knows what I'm saying and that I'm appreciative and over the last few months I've just come to accept that I will not hear from T anymore. That's okay... that's the nature of the therapeutic relationship. It doesn't make it hurt any less but it's be abnormal if you weren't bothered by the whole thing. After all, for most people, losing T is losing the one person in the whole world who know basically everything about you and who actually has the ability to advise you through it. That's hard. It will get better over time and finding a new T will certainly be helpful. I agree with the others that if you write an e-mail and just put it all out there you may feel better because everything is off your chest. Take care and good luck with the new T. Things will get better especially once you really get rolling with new T.