well...
was a bit apprehensive, as I actually felt OK today.
We had a really good chat, her trying to understand me better, what was going on in my life, how I handle situations, what emotions I'm going through, how my cycles work...
She's about 65 years old, so I assume she's been practicing long (Maybe too long??)
She has doubled my Epilim (Sodium Valporate) to 400mg/day (one morning, one night) and if I don't get more stable within a week, I need to phone her and we'll maybe try Lambigotrine. She said she hasn't had too much experience with using it (As Sodium Valporate seemed to help the majority of her patients) but has heard good things.

I told her I felt guilty phoning her when I was down, but she said it was OK. And also that she prefered me phoning her when I was suicidal, as it gives her the opportunity to do some quick thinking to help me. And that she was fine with me taking a sleeping tablet and sleeping through the depressive phase( It was obviously a coping mechanism I was comfortable with, and better than committing suicide).

She did a bit of digging in my emotions (She tends to realise I get lost for words and instead of the conversation just hanging, suggests emotions which I can then either say I relate to or not). SO I guess I learnt quite a bit about myself.
I also realise she is no therapist, and while it's not "painful" going through these emotions, I think there may be some value in working through this with a T. Waiting for her to suggest it...