gypsymama,

I am sorry that Psych Central doesn't seem to be helping you through your emotions right now. Perhaps you need to step back a little bit, and think about it.

You do need help. That's something you readily admit. As we all know, "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink."

I do understand your frustration with MA. I understand your fear of being stuck with haphazard mental health professionals, assuming that they're too busy and/or uneducated to be of any help. That isn't a fair judgement though. A significant portion of mental health providers do care. You being safe is their #1 concern. That is a fact.

Don't worry about this big mess of MA right now. It is a mess, and confusing, but they will clean it up. They simply have to! Your number one concern really ought to be getting help too. Lying to the pro's doesn't help you in any way. Be honest with them, so you can get the help that you need to get through this dark period.

(((Very best wishes to you in the darkness!!))