I've been in same place with people, friends...
It is very hard for people to understand 'our' ailments
We have a greater time understanding them.

I used to run people off on purpose
People used to run off when I 'acted out'

It's hard for all involved.

I say - let everyone do as much as they can, if they want.
And if it's too hard for people to be friends then for themselves it probally is better to NOT be my friend.

I have a hard time being my own friend.
But, I can't give up on me...Even though I do fight myself

So for me having 'friends' is really not an option.

I have virtual reality-ships, as best as I can

those don't hold up so much either...

but such is life