Marjan honey,

Take it easy. It sounds like you are not having a good time with it all. You know, some times I feel like I just want to be alone. And that includes no seeing any faces of stranger men on the site. So I do not log onto it. Some hours pass or a day or 2 and then I feel OK with it again. Just listen to what you need at the time. Dont be so harsh on yourself. And as for friends- well, its worth taking a deep breath and thinkingg if you really want this friendship or not before you do anything. Some times just waiting a bit allows me to see the bigger picture or stuff I did not think about before. Stay cool!! Hugs xx